This is my Vedic Astrology profile. This werided me out.

Your Moon Nakshatra is Mrigashira

Mrigashira means deer's head.

Mrigashira is the searching star. Mrigashira is ruled by Mars, which shows you have an active, bold, and restless nature. There is a searching, naïve, and creative quality that keeps you seeking the idyllic vision of beauty in your heart.

Mythologically, Soma is the deity of Mrigashira. Soma is the god of the immortal nectar. The gods would drink Soma in order to become intoxicated, drunk with divine bliss. Soma refers both to the drink and the experience itself. In Mrigashira's myth, Prajapati, the creator, chases after his daughter Rohini, in order to create the most beautiful beings to populate the Earth. Prajapati's illusions become shattered later on when the other gods conspire to bring him down. However, divine bliss and divine possibility compel Prajapati forward in the nakshatra of Mrigashira. His courage and innocence, in spite of the consequences, are revealed here.

Strengths: You have the courage to pursue your heart's desire and the innocence to continue to do so even after life's disappointments threaten to shatter your illusions. You have a very creative mind and finely tuned perceptions as well as persuasive speech and communication abilities. Your main motivation is freedom yet you will seek it in a soft and tender way. You have a multitude of creative gifts, including creating wealth, comfort, and love for yourself and others.

Shadow issues: You may be fickle, unfocused, and prone to the "Jack of all trades, master of none" syndrome. You may spend too much time indulging creative idyllic fantasies, yet become frustrated when faced with reality. Be careful of overtaxing your delicate nervous system - you may be easily overwhelmed. An underlying hostile and angry nature is also present should your frustrations become too great.

http://www.trinijunglejuice.com/socamusic.html

This website is one of the best websites that I have found for Soca and Calypso music!! I was searching for Maxiums Dan's song, Fighter. I wanted it for when Trinidad and Tobago was in the World Cup. Sadly they were eliminated; but I am still very proud of them for qualifying. They really do have some great players. Shaka Hislop has to be my favorite goal keeper in the world. The football doesn't stand a chance when he is in goal!! Way to go TnT!!!

Some things I really do miss about Trinidad....

This post really has no relevance at all. I just read an article about dancing in the National Geographic today. Anyone that really knows me knows that I love to dance. It is, not only a means of expression for me but a means of release, as well. Dancing is the most powerful expression in the world. It connects us to everything. If you are confused by what that means, well so am I. I find it difficult to express exactly what I mean (maybe if I dance it for you, you would understand). I am not sure that I know of any other expression that is as ephemeral as a "dance" yet connects our cerebrums, our bodies, our emotions, our desires, simultaneously. It has the power to be a conversation, a monologue, a narrative, just anything that it needs to be. No tools needed. And yes you may you need music/a rhythm...trust me, you really don't need much to make music...you can stomp, hit two sticks together, use your voice, use your hands, your fingers.....what greater freedom do we have???

As I sit on my porch this evening enjoying Louisiana summertime weather, surfing the net, and letting my near three year old daughter decorate my eyes with make-believe eye shadow I realize that no amount of discouragement or negativism will hinder my plans of becoming a physician. The reason that I must do this with my life is breathing down my face with the determination of making me look like a "princess". This is not to say that I must become a doctor for my daughter or because it will make life easier for us. I have to do this because it is my dream. I don't believe in giving up on dreams. If I let this dream go, what will that teach her? To give up because circumstances are not "ideal"? No, I am not fresh out of college. I am a 28 year old stay at home mom. I have not been to school since 2001 and have not had a job since 2003. I could easily discourage myself and it is even easier with help from others. However, as my husband once told me "life is not a dress rehearsal". This is my chance and I am taking it. So now I am going to go and dance with my little angel, now that I am her princess. We are jamming to "Three Lions" football song for the 2006 World Cup.

http://www.wigmag.com/laundrycafe/deadweight_3_18_2001.html

Love this poem. Just found it. It was how I felt before I made the decision to go to med school.

Okay, this is what I thought may be useful to anyone reading this blog and thinking about what to bring to their Caribbean Med School.... Of course, do the research. Search ValueMD.com, become a member if you aren't, check out your school's website and their suggestions. You will have a very comprehensive list of what you will need, may need, and possibly don't really need. But this is my advise which is based on having moved to the Caribbean prior to this (with husband and newborn in 2003):

1. Patience---this above all of your worldly possessions will get you further and frankly will help you keep your health, both physical and mental. I have learned that nothing happens quickly in the Caribbean no matter how much or how loud you holler, rant, and rave.
2. Understanding/Sensitivity---you will probably be moving to a country that is not your own. I have always been culturally sensitive and accepting but some of you may not be. What you must remember is that you will be a visitor in a foreign land. Although you may be a key factor in their economy the fact is that you are a visitor. You will get annoyed with things in their culture and you will more than likely be homesick. However, curtail your annoyance and keep negative comments to yourself and within the walls of your home (if you must make them). Remember, there is a port from where you can leave and go home. (The locals will not beg you to stay in their country.) Embrace the differences and learn from them. Because I learned to do this in Trinidad, I have taken a part of Trinidad home with me. I learned their words, phrases, way of life, mentality, etc...Now I hope to do the same in Saba.
3. Knowledge--read about where you are staying, what the culture, food, music, society is like...and know that CULTURE SHOCK is real. Educate yourself!! This is a wonderful site--http://edweb.sdsu.edu/people/CGuanipa/cultshok.htm

Well that is my BIG THREE, which may change as this journal progresses...

OKAY! How long ago was my last post??? Not even two hours ago!! I guess I am trying to find things to do to procrastinate from what I should be doing (packing and organizing)...Just when I start to feel down and tired...I find my favorite book in the entire universe Cunt A Declaration of Independence by Inga Muscio. I have read this book at least 10 times and each time I find myself laughing and discovering new meanings in her book. It is by far a book that everyone should read, but sadly, won't. It is empowering for women. Muscio's powerful use of English reels you in and makes you realize different dimensions of women's issues. One of the issues of her book that I like to point out is that women could be their own army and own saviors if they would just learn to love one another and quit being caddy and judgmental.

I close this post with this excerpt from Muscio:

"Women comprise over 50 percent of this country. Women comprise just over 50 percent of this planet. There's plenty of power in numbers. If we don't have power, it can't have anything to do with mass.

To know oneself truly is to love oneself. Whereas women do not learn the veritable nature of ourselves in this culture, the likelihood that we love ourselves and/or one another is highly suspect."

Well thus far I have packed up many of my valuables so that they do not get destroyed during my stay on the island. I have also packed my school supplies in big boxes (to be shipped). I plan on putting my daughter's toys on top of the books and supplies. I cannot even imagine that I will need all of these school supplies but I am trying to adopt the "better safe than sorry" attitude. I spent the majority of the morning wrapping up pictures in newspaper and packing stemware that I know my husband won't need when I am gone. Last week I packed away my pottery.

I got my school supply and book list from Saba University but I also got a list of "things you may want to take to the island" from another "Island" University website. I found helpful. Also ValueMD.com is a great website for all IMGs! Many students post ultra-comprehensive lists of things to bring, some things make me giggle, but overall it is helpful if you don't let their lists panic you into packing a 20ft container of supplies.

Back to packing and photographing this insanity in my house!!

I am starting this online journal to catalogue my journey from stay at home mom to full blown medical student. This is my first post and thus far I have not put much thought into what this first post is meant to say to everyone. It is my commencement and I will let my "journal" evolve and develop from this. Pretty much all I am sure of is that the sun rises everyday and other than that my life has been a whirlwind of changes. My plan is to leave the States 22 August with child and husband and head for Trinidad. There I will meet Cams, and we will travel all together (Me, Hubby, Cams, and my daughter) to the island of Saba, where I begin school on 4 September. This is my journey beginning in Lafayette, Louisiana....